but its time to close this blog. i’m leaving the archives here so i can still read them. You can read them if you want to. Email me sometime if you like. my email is angel.rising@gmail.com. Thank you all for taking this journey with me. i wish you all well.
Love,
angel
December 19 2007 | Administration | 4 Comments »
my computer died. i’m going crazy. i’m at a friend’s house now. i’ll be back when i have a computer. FUCK.
October 16 2007 | Uncategorized | 4 Comments »
LK was just in for five days. When she went home i was so bummed. Every time she leaves it gets harder. And, i can’t even imagine how hard it must be for her.
i’m going to a munch tonight alone. i’m a little nervous… last time i had J and LK with me and J made me feel secure and LK did most of the talking. This time i’ve got to rock the baby on my own. i’m sure i can do it, but i am a little nervous.
i’ve been a little nutty lately and that drives me apeshit. i really want to be better but i keep getting derailed by visions of my grandfather. i wish that shit would go away. i think i’m just going to have to learn to live with it though.
Okay, i’m off to finish cleaning my house and get in the tub. i have to go to the freaking grocery store. YUCK!
September 06 2007 | Just Life | 2 Comments »
So on Tuesday J promised to do something special with me today. i’ve really been looking forward to it, and hoping it would involve whips and chains and implements of torture.
We went shopping a bit and paid some bills and got a bite to eat. By then we were running late. We got home and i put the groceries away while J went and laid implements on the bed.
He had me strip and take my everyday collar off. He put my play collar on and my wrist cuffs. Then he attached the wrist cuffs one to the other with the bed post inside of them, effectively chaining my arms to the bedpost. Then he ran a length of chain through the D rings in my collar and attached that to the bedpost. i was tied there by my neck and arms.
Out came the nipple clamps. One of them hurt so bad… the tension was turned down all the way and it made the nerves in my left nipple scream. But, i didn’t whine or complain, i took it as a welcome torture. Finally, to complete his preparations, he put the ball gag in my mouth and strapped it tight.
Then it was time to play. J started with the black flogger, my favorite. He gave me sharp strokes on my back and ass. And i relaxed into it, leaning my head against the bedpost.
Suddenly he was spreading my legs with his foot. Forcing them wide apart. And, to my dismay he began to whip my splayed pussy with the black leather flogger, not the cute little suede one. Immediately i began to whimper into the gag as lash after lash bit into my sensitive pink bits and my inner thighs. It was agony.
Then the phone rang. i was overjoyed mildly relieved. After he checked to see who was calling, J came back and told me to stick my ass out. He flogged me a bit more with vicious strokes. Finally he threw the flogger on the bed and picked up the crop. Boy that stings! He used the crop on my back and ass HARD. When he used it on the backs of my thighs i couldn’t help but whine again.
At some point he leaned me forward and fucked me standing up for a few minutes.
At that point J pulled out the paddle and really laid into my ass. i kept my feet on the floor with great effort. It was hot… i was hurting so bad and wanted him so much. Delicious.
Then we moved into the sex portion of the proceedings. He got on the bed and positioned himself so i could get to his cock. He helped me slide down on my knees. And, i sucked his length into my throat. i could taste myself on him and i tried to clean every bit of him up.
Finally he unchained my neck and unhooked my cuffs. He hooked the cuffs back together free of the bedpost and ordered me to get on the bed. And, he was in me. Oh how painfully yummy. i can’t even describe it. He fucked me senseless pausing once or twice to make me suck his cock or lick his balls.
i thought the evening was over. He called LK and talked for a while. Brad came home. Vanilla life ensued. But, after Brad went to bed and was sleeping soundly, J had me bend over the chair in the living room. He pulled out the monster paddle he made out of a two by six. That fucker is HUGE. When he swatted me with that it drove me forward into the chair. i was crying out. i couldn’t help myself. i wasn’t loud, but sound escaped me.
Then he got the black flogger and beat me for a while. LK called and he talked to her while he beat me. She said she couldn’t hear me and he asked if she wanted to. Then he started laying strokes right across the backs of my thighs. Oh god. Pain! i was crying out again. Finally he had mercy and stopped.
End of story i have bruises on my ass but i’m very very happy.
August 31 2007 | Steamy Hot Rough Sex | 2 Comments »
Today J let me give him a bath. It felt wonderful to bathe him and just do something so wonderfully service oriented. i felt very close to him. And, of course, i got to wash his cock. Touching that is always a thrill.
i don’t pamper J enough. i need to work on that. Back rubs, baths, head massages are all things he enjoys. i want to provide them. i love serving in that way. Its on my to do list.
Damn, i wanted to go on but the cable is messed up and J wants me to call the cable company. i’ll try to get back to this.
August 29 2007 | Relationship Reflection | 1 Comment »
So. LK left on Sunday and my household is drooping with missing her. She has become such an integral part of our lives that when she leaves we mourn her.
Last night J and i fucked last night and it was nice, but i’m missing the wood already. i guess i’ve made my peace with it. J likes wood so i am learning to. He says he is going to make a paddle himself. That should be interesting.
The three of us had a big scene Saturday night. He pulled out the crop, the flogger, the paddle, the candles and even the pussy flogger that LK gave him. (Dumb, dumb, DUMB LK!) He actually made me hysterical with the hot wax and laughed while he did it.
i’m really realizing for the first time what a sadist J is. i always kind of thought that… i don’t know… it was a chore for him. i’m finally figuring out how much he likes to inflict pain and watch me (us) suffer. Its extremely hot.
i’m going to tell him i need a scene to blog. i don’t blog scenes with LK for her privacy… but its been too long since i had some juicy tidbits to share. Maybe he will indulge me.
August 28 2007 | LK and Relationship Reflection | 3 Comments »
Today we went to a munch. It was a lot of fun getting to meet other people with BDSM interests. We all had a really good time and look forward to going again.
Upon leaving the munch J held both mine and LK’s hands. A waiter had hit on LK and it greatly annoyed us all, so J wanted to show that she was with him. We can’t do this kind of stuff in our tiny town, it’d cause too much talk. But, the munch is held in a bigger place and it was okay. i didn’t even feel the least bit weird about it. Not even when some young guy in the parking lot made a comment to the effect that J knew how to do it. LOL. Yes, he certainly does.
So we went to our first munch and were a threesome in public for the first time. It was a banner day.
August 25 2007 | Just Life | 2 Comments »
Oh for fucks sake! Has it really been that long since i blogged? ARGH! How does this happen?
i got paddled twice since i last wrote, got a new rule about shaving down south, and declared war on my son’s school. The first paddling left bruises on my ass and was tear worthy. Whoo hoo. Yay for wood. i honestly think i really meant that… so i must be loosing my mind.
i didn’t shave my pussy for ummm four days (hush i’m blushing) and ended up giving J a bad scrape from it. He was less than thrilled and instituted a new shave at least every other day rule. i don’t know what the punishment will be if i don’t follow through, but i’m not anxious to find out. i feel awful that i hurt him. That’s enough to motivate me.
And, the school! Argh! Those bastards are only feeding Brad totally blended food and are not giving him any texture at all now that he is LIKING it. They trumped up some excuse about a test needing to be done before they allow him to eat and then didn’t call and ask me to get the test. i think they just don’t want to deal with the mess. Well, fuck them. i’ve got the ball rolling for that test. Now that my baby wants to eat, they WILL give him food. i don’t care if i have to move heaven and hell to do it!
August 23 2007 | Just Life | 1 Comment »
So last night as J is going to bed he tells me, “I wanted to beat your ass tonight.” That’s so frustrating. Why does he tease me that way? i haven’t had my ass beat in four forevers. i miss it a lot. i feel all shaky and tense. i need a good dose of act right to feel at ease again. And, he tells me he wanted to but just didn’t?!? ARGH!
And, by the way, i was interviewed about this blog at bloginterviewer.com. Click on the little orange vote for me in the side bar to have a peek. Then hopefully you’ll decide to vote for me!
August 17 2007 | Just Life | 2 Comments »
J has decided to strengthen the D/s aspect of our relationship. i’m hoping this works out. i feel better when there is tighter control in our relationship. i’ve been a bit out of sorts lately and i think this is just what i need to get back on an even kilter.
We were supposed to make up our day of tight control when i came home from LK’s but i had broken my freaking ankle and i’m not good for anything. 
i really hope this works.
August 16 2007 | Relationship Reflection | 3 Comments »
